I have always had issues within myself. I give too much..I love too deeply..and I have always felt as if someone somewhere was going to hurt me...at any given moment. I am really just learning that this is a defense mechanism. I truly believed that my life was always going to be me putting my trust into someone and getting my heart ripped out. I grew stronger with each hurt feeling or tear I shed. But now that I am married..I see that I do this with everyone! People who love me and would never want to see me hurt. One little argument or disagreement and my mind races. "He doesn't love me".
Angel..listen to yourself. That doesn't make any sense. He does love you and they do appriciate you. It's just a bad day. I have to tell myself this. I have to set the record straight in my head. I need to do that instead of spending the day crying and sulking. Only to see that everything always works out. And usually there is a lesson learned. Or even a chance to get to know my loved ones a little more.
Ok. I'm done for now. I set the record straight in my head and I needed that today.
